2/1/24
...i dont entirely remember my dream from last night..3 but i do remember everyone in the house having a nightmare, whenever i tried 2 ask my sister what her nightmare was about.. she would start 2 cry and say that she can't say it because its too horrific..3 i gave up trying 2 pressure her into telling me her dream... & thats when everything went really bonkers... i asked my aunt what her nightmare was about & she did the same thing. She just started crying and saying that she couldnt tell me... but i did noticed something about her, she kept covering her right eye. I never got to find out why her eye was being covered..3 but in my dream i had assumed that she lost it or that it fell out. Well.. then i looked down at my arms, and i noticed they were all sliced up...((which. isnt as surprising considering.... uhh..)) but this time it was really bad..3 there was blood all over my arms & for some reason.. my skin had bumps underneath it..? & my skin was peeling as well... in the dream, i knew that i did it 2 myself......why did i mutilate myself so badly..? no clue.
but i cant shake the feeling that i knew i was dreaming? because i wasnt scared or worried... if anything, i was very very confused. i kept trying 2 find answers as 2 why my arms were so bad & why my family had such horrible nightmares.
sometimes.. i wish i could go back 2 my dreams and get some kindof answer.